Everytime I turn a year older, I always start to question things. What's my purpose in life, what have I accomplished, what I have become. It could because I going through a period of life called "quarter life crisis." I'm sure nothing's wrong with me, just going through a stage. I don't know (or I forgot) where I first saw this article but I liked it and it captured my sentiments. Whoever the author is, Dude, thanks for sharing it with us twenty somethings.
On Being Twenty Something
They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."
It is when you stop going along with the crowd
and start realizingthat there are many things
about yourself that you didn't know and may not like.
You start feeling insecure and wonder
where you will be in a year or two,
but then get scared because you barely know
where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish
and that, maybe, those friends that you thought
you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest
people you have ever met, and the people
you have lost touch with aresome of the most
important ones.
What you don't recognize is that
they are realizing that too,
and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere,
but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job... and it is not even close
to what you thought you would be doing,
or maybe you arelooking for a job and realizing that you
are going to have to start at the bottom
and that scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger.
You see what others are doing and find yourself
judging more than usual because suddenly you realize
that you have certain boundaries in your life and are
constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable
and what isn't.
One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of yourlife.
You feel alone and scared and confused.
Suddenly, change is the enemy
and you try and cling onto the past with dear life,
but soon realize that the past is drifting further
and further away, and there is nothing to do
but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone
you loved could do such damage to you.
Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't
meet anyone decent enough
that you want to get to know better.
Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too
and cannot figure out why you are doing this
because you know that you aren't a bad person.
One night stands and random hookups start to look cheap.
Getting wasted and acting like an idiot
starts to look pathetic.
You go through the same emotions
and questions over and over, and talk with your friends
about the same topics because you cannot seem
to make a decision.
You worry about loans, money, the future
and making a life for yourself...
and while winning the race wouldbe great,
right now you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this
relates to it.
We are in our best of times and our worst of times,
trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.
I would love to post pictures of the newly wed but I didnt have the time to take pictures then. Just came from my shift so I was sooooo tired and lazy to do so. So I'll just post our pictures instead.
