Sunday, July 3, 2011

The Joys and Frustrations of Motherhood

It's been more than a week since I gave birth and everytime I look at my baby Quino, I still can't believe how blessed I am. Everyday, I give my thanks to God for giving us our bundle of joy.

Quino has been the center of attraction on both our families. My husband's family was excited to hold our baby since our arrival from the hospital. It's been too long since a baby came from their family. And my family? Well, it's my parent's first grandchild so you can just imagine the attention they're willing to give to my baby boy. My mama have been making plans already on what she'll do and buy for her grandchild once we move near their place. You see, before the year ends, we'll be moving to our own house my papa "gave" us, which is just 3 houses away from theirs.

Anyway, since I'm a first time mom and motherhood doesn't come with a manual, I've already experienced a few road blocks. No, I'm not bothered (yet) by the lack of sleep since working in a call center already deprives you of one. The first challenge is the crying; sometimes I just can't figure out what he wants. I end up cradling him all the time, which my husband now disapproves. Quino is getting used to this and he thinks I'm spoiling our baby. And right now, my husband and I are both bothered by the rashes he developed on both of his cheeks. Is it allergy? To what then? See picture below... His pedia advised us to use Cetaphil for now and come back to her clinic if rashes would worsen.

Finally, the most frustrating of them all is breastfeeding. Argh!! I hate that I don't produce enough milk for my baby! I feel worthless! Eversince I got pregnant, my mind was set to breastfeeding and it's so upsetting that he don't like to latch on me. I never got to let him latch for the first week of his existence. So now, he prefers being bottle fed. I'm guessing he's got nipple confusion because it has been a struggle for mother and son everytime I try to latch him on me. Well, I tried express feeding but manual pumps are too slow and also adds to my frustration. I can only produce 1 oz per day. I've been taking malunggay capsules and soups but that's just my daily milk production. I'm now trying on drinking herbal tea I brought from Healthy Options to see if it'll make any difference.

I envy the moms who were able to breastfeed their baby. If anyone has a suggestion or tips for this frustrated first time mom, feel free to comment since I'm sooo open and desperate for one. I'm paranoid that I won't be develop a bond with my newborn if I don't get to breastfeed him.


oneproudmomma said...

keep trying and try to mix malunggay leaves in everything that you eat. my daughter is already 1 yr and 4 months old and she's still breastfeeding. When she had her open heart surgery, I wasn't able to breastfeed for almost a month, I nearly lost my milk, but thank God it was remedied by malunggay leaves and capsules.

mommyWYT said...

looks like baby acne. it usually clears up naman. avoid using scented products on him. spit-up milk also irritates the skin. and for his clothes, don't use strong detergents. :D

Anonymous said...

I have no advice to dispense as I am not a mother (yet), I just gotta comment that your baby looks so cute. Ang tangos ng ilong, katuwa! =)

Ayen said...

@oneproudmomma: thanks! you gave me hope! will keep on trying with breastfeeding.

@mommywyt: hmmm... baby acne... i didn't know such thing exists. but you may be right, spit-up milk may be the culprit.. i'm using topical ointment for my baby just as the pedia prescribed. thanks!

@blackshirt13: thanks! he got the nose from his dad. =)

The Average Jane said...

I'm expected to give birth anytime soon and I'm scared to death. Hehehe! Here's hoping for the best! =)

Cute baby. =)

Faye said...

your baby is so cute!!:)