On Being Twenty Something

Everytime I turn a year older, I always start to question things. What's my purpose in life, what have I accomplished, what I have become. It could because I going through a period of life called "quarter life crisis." I'm sure nothing's wrong with me, just going through a stage. I don't know (or I forgot) where I first saw this article but I liked it and it captured my sentiments. Whoever the author is, Dude, thanks for sharing it with us twenty somethings.

On Being Twenty Something

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."

It is when you stop going along with the crowd

and start realizingthat there are many things

about yourself that you didn't know and may not like.

You start feeling insecure and wonder

where you will be in a year or two,

but then get scared because you barely know

where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish

and that, maybe, those friends that you thought

you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest

people you have ever met, and the people

you have lost touch with aresome of the most

important ones.

What you don't recognize is that

they are realizing that too,

and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere,

but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job... and it is not even close

to what you thought you would be doing,

or maybe you arelooking for a job and realizing that you

are going to have to start at the bottom

and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger.

You see what others are doing and find yourself

judging more than usual because suddenly you realize

that you have certain boundaries in your life and are

constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable

and what isn't.

One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of yourlife.

You feel alone and scared and confused.

Suddenly, change is the enemy

and you try and cling onto the past with dear life,

but soon realize that the past is drifting further

and further away, and there is nothing to do

but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone

you loved could do such damage to you.

Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't

meet anyone decent enough

that you want to get to know better.

Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too

and cannot figure out why you are doing this

because you know that you aren't a bad person.

One night stands and random hookups start to look cheap.

Getting wasted and acting like an idiot

starts to look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions

and questions over and over, and talk with your friends

about the same topics because you cannot seem

to make a decision.

You worry about loans, money, the future

and making a life for yourself...

and while winning the race wouldbe great,

right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this

relates to it.

We are in our best of times and our worst of times,

trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.